I think that the really bad time of my depression was when I could not find that happiness in simple things. I devised a ritual to help myself through it, and to re-make the connection with the natural physical world that gets lost in depression.
What I did was to sit outside, quietly, raining or not, and concentrate completely on a leaf or a flower or a stone, feeling it, looking at it, putting it to my face, sometimes in my mouth, until I recognized it again, as both separate from and part of me. At my worst I just lay in the rain, or sometimes even the snow, until I could feel something not in my own head."
If a guy calls you princess in a condescending manner assert your newly appointed royal status and have him beheaded.
P.U.S.S.Y. - Positive Until Suckas Start Yappin’
PART 2 - THE REVENGE
presented by magnacarterholygrail
1. Eartha Kitt Intro
2. Nicki Minaj ft. PTAF - Boss Ass Bitch (Remix)
3. Beyonce - ***Flawless
4. Nina Simone - Feeling Good
5. Junglepussy - Picky Bitch Checklist
6. Eve - Who’s That Girl?
7. Alicia Keys - Superwoman
8. Tennille - Blow It Up, Blow It Down
9. Trina - That’s My Attitude
10. Missy Elliott - We Run This
11. Amanda Diva - Supa Woman
12. Dai Burger - They Ain’t Ready
13. Diamond, Trina, and Eve - My Bitch Bad (Remix)
14. Rihanna - Fresh Off The Runway
15. The Internet - Fastlane
16. Erykah Badu - Me
17. M.I.A. - Illygirl
18. Janelle Monae ft. Solange - Electric Lady
download it here!
enjoy, i love you!
Eartha Kitt Intro? Fuck YEAH
I know, I know, I’ve posted this before. This time around, I’m feelin pretty down about myself and very alone and I need to remind myself that is not true. I feel really proud of this song and I sort of want to explain why. To whom, I’m not sure. I just have to say why. That’s all. I wrote this after reading a few books by Dorothy Allison, and connecting very deeply to what she had to say. This is the most personal song I have ever, ever written and perhaps that’s why I am so proud of it. This song is about how AIDS has very directly impacted my family and how I feel as a queer and trans individual inside that family. or rather, outside that family. Shunned, other’d, and ultimately forgotten. I am not supposed to talk about either of those two things. I do have some supportive family who are still working through a lot of things so many many years later, but this is the space I took to write about the family I held near to me who to this day rarely speaks of the close family member we lost to AIDS related complications when I was younger and who now no longer talks to me due to my strength to find myself a life in their determined “shadows”. My family always compared my aunt and me to each other in our familiarity, and this song is my way of connecting that to something much deeper than just our personalities. Christianity can really ruin people. Not always, but it’s important to remember when it does. We are worth remembering. We are worth talking about. Silence can be incredibly painful. I’m thankful for the outcasting, as it has taught me that what little birth family I did have, I can always build my own. Also, my mother is amazing but it certainly still is a journey for her to learn what family is too. Somehow, there’s still more to the story than this but that’s all for now. I’m just tired of not saying something. That’s where this song comes from. I’m proud of speaking up.
Been probably two years since I tumbled a selfie so here you all are.
- my hair curls now, so.
- I cut my own bangs last week, and I feel really really good about it
“We have to remember constantly that shaming is one of the deepest tools of imperialist, white supremacist, capitalist, patriarchy because shame produces trauma and trauma often produces paralysis. So when the sister said that there are days when she just can’t get out of bed, lots of us experience that sense of paralysis.”
— Bell Hooks during her dialogue with Melissa Harris-Perry, “Black Female Voices”
"It’s important to keep your feelings and your self worth in different places, because when feelings get hurt it shouldn’t change how you view yourself."
I am on steroids and also on antibiotics and also on my period and I am GOING CRAZY. Seriously. It feels like a shit storm up in this body. It’s weird to think about how fragile bodies are, in that we take for granted the 10,000,000 tiny things happening inside of us and then one goes differently and our constitution/the way we endure the world is just whacked out.
I need a nap.
Also, I need to watch more Good Wife (can’t stop, won’t stop).